Fibromyalgia

[loves420]

Hi all, I know it's long but it worth it. This is a true story..I know for a fact. I lived through it. No one can tell or convince me mj has no medical value. I wrote this, so people who don't have this ailment or a painful one, have a chance to understand it. I must warn you this is painful and you might feel my pain. This is how I explain it. I have seen lots of people cry when they heard this. I don't want pitty. I WANT THE TRUTH OF MEDICAL MARIJUANA KNOWN for all to see

 

 

Peace :smoke

 

 

 

May 20, 2000 around 11:30pm, my life as I knew it died. Like a phoenix, my life burst into flame and started to turn to ash, but had not fallen upon the ground yet. I had learned a lot about my now ex-husband that he failed to mention while we were dating. I had learned he was an alcoholic, an angry drunk, and he loved crank (meth). The phoenixes' ash is beginning to fall; my husband picked a fight with me. Without warning he slammed me into the exterior wall of our house. I remember I took three or four very quick steps back before my right shoulder smashed into the wall, followed by my upper back (between the shoulder blades), then my lower back hit hard. My memory goes hazy and so it will remain there for too long. My shoulder snaps, cracks, grinds, and pops when it is in motion. The lower back had a one-inch high and round bump over the spine and between the vertebra. This is what started my condition, a nasty type of chronic pain, and very hard to diagnose. It is called Fibromyalgia; pray you never get it. But it would be almost 4 years before I would know. My life as I had known it was over.

The ash, of the phoenix, falls into a gray pile; I have been shackled and become a prisoner to pain. How do I explain pain that I have never felt before? There are too many painful memories that have been burned into my mind. I would put a pillow in my mouth, so no one would hear, and would scream in agony for hours upon hours. I got uncontrollable migraines and spinal headaches. My eyes felt like they were going to bust while my head was building so much pressure it was going to explode. The spinal headaches lasted a few months while my body tried to heal. However, my back was weakened. At any given time, this condition will send a power surge through my nervous system. The havoc that this causes is pure Hell. I get muscle spasms for hours or even days. I could hear my mind screaming at my leg to stop flopping around like a fish out of water. But it could be anything connected to a nerve. My leg was racked in pain every time it jerked, and yet it could not obey. The intense pain would hit my stomach and caused severe nausea and vomiting. I would throw-up several times a day even though my stomach was empty. I lost fifty pounds in a couple months. Before I could recover from an episode, my feet all of sudden felt like they were on fire. Yet, a few inches away, one of my ankle felt ice cold to the point it was throbbing and being stabbed with ice sickles. The other ankle felt normal. The pain was so intense I could not sleep. It was not uncommon for me to stay awake for 72 hours straight. This is a small taste of my everyday life. The ’bad’ days are far worse; too many times I have been stuck in bed for days or even weeks. I could not walk or even stand because of pain or I could not feel apart of me. If I moved any part of my body, I felt pain everywhere. But if I lay still, felt pain shooting down my spine. I have dragged myself on the floor to go to the bathroom, make something to eat, to get my medication, etc. etc. I hated what I had become.... I wished for death to end my suffering.

My first doctor tried everything she could think of medication, x-rays, cat-scans, blood tests, and a spinal trap. But all tests showed, “there might be a problem,” or nothing is wrong. I took Vicodin, Soma, Naproxen, Promethazine, Ibuprofen, Bextra, and countless others. I took eighteen plus pills a day, but the pain laughed at the attempt to kill it. She gave up after a year and then told me, "It's all in your head" and “You’re a junky.” That was the last time I saw her. I found my current doctor and he repeated all the test except the spinal trap. All the results were the same.

About the same time, I was talking to a medical marijuana friend of mine, Jim. He was a six-foot tall trucker before he was injured. Jim asked me if I had ever tried marijuana for the pain. It never had occurred to me, but now that very question I had asked myself before I voted in 1998 was back and needed to be answered again. “If I had a painful condition and standard treatment did not work, would I try marijuana to ease my misery?” Misery a word I truly understand. This is one of the easiest questions I have ever answered in my life. I talked to my doctor even though I was not diagnosed with a named condition; I still fit the guidelines. He signed the paperwork.

About three or four months later, the pain that had aggregately laughed to my pleading to be freed from this insanity was about to know fear. I smoked medical marijuana for the first time, and felt the pain leave my body. My pain level went a ten plus, on the pain scale, to a five within a few minutes and it continued to drop. I could feel the pain wither and die inside of me, and was replaced with something I have not felt for an eternally. My body began to relax; my mind began to clear. I began to realize I had been given a key to unlock the shackles of pain. At last, my nervous system calmed down. The migraine, which had become one of my masters screamed in contempt. For the first time in over a year, I did not have a headache of any kind. The muscle spasms reduced and finally stopped on my command. My body was exhaustion and collapsed. I feel asleep and slept for hours, the best in years. When I awoke on my terms, I was starving. For the first time in a longtime, I got hungry, ate my fill and held it down. Sometime later, "Jim" gave me some marijuana tea, and told me to drink it in the next hour or the THC will be gone, and DO NOT DRIVE while under it. When I got home I drank it, and am glad I took his advice. The tea was delicious; it tasted like I was drinking a pumpkin pie. Since I drank it instead of smoking it marijuana, it took about 20 minutes or so to feel the effects. My mind was clear as a bell, I remember thinking I’m back. The phoenix has risen from the ash, stronger and better then before. If any of my formal masters had returned, I could not feel them. For I had a very strong body high, my body was numb to pain.

Edited November 11, 2004 by loves420

[loves420]

Dr. Dryland's book comes out in July and he has a video coming out before that. He has a different seminar for fibro next month. Keep you posted.

 

My ex has actually 2 child support (full amount) for the 1st time. I'm still in shock

 

Peace all :smoke

[F420]

hey Im reading a book at the moment, well actually left it at work.

 

but there are treatments for FM.

 

check this site out-

 

http://www.fibromyalgiatreatment.com/

 

I havent looked in to this too much yet.

[F420]

Guaifenesin:

We no longer use the old uricosuric gout medications. Instead, we prescribe guaifenesin, a safer medication that may be used even for children. This is an innocuous component of many cold and cough preparations added to liquefy mucus. It is our most potent drug to date for reversing fibromyalgia. We begin patients with 300 milligrams (one-half tablet) twice a day for one week. If they feel distinctly worse, this is their dosage and they should remain at that amount. (This suffices for 20 percent of patients.) If symptoms do not worsen, we increase to 600 mg. (a full tablet) twice daily. Another 50 percent begin reversing at this dosage. This leaves about thirty percent who will need more. For these patients, we continue to slowly raise their dose of guaifenesin until an exacerbation of symptoms begins. We must stress that worsening or new symptoms signal that reversal is underway. As the reversal progresses, better hours gradually appear, eventually cluster into days and finally weeks. Like a bouncing ball, the up-and-down symptoms slowly ease, and the palpable lumps and bumps soften, break up and clear. Every two months at the proper dose should reverse at least one year of accumulated metabolic debris. Thus, the longer the illness has been present, the more time will be needed for total reversal. Newer lesions clear first and the oldest last. (Damaged structures from whatever cause cannot be restored.)

[loves420]

Today is my ex's deadline to pay child support and he decided to pay the full amount for the first time ever. I guess he doesn't want to go to jail yet.

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the payments results-

1st month-paid in full and on time

2nd-paid in full, but 1 week late

3rd- he forgot

4th- the child support enforcement finally drag $220 ($100 short) out of him

5th- $220

6th-$220

This month he forgot.

 

This thurs. he dragging me to court to get unsupervised parenting time. I don't think so. last week, he took me to court to get the restraining order dropped...

His plan backfired!!! :: ......

 

instead of it getting dropped, he gave it sharper teeth :thumbsup

the judge added my kids into it, so my ex can't see them by court order plus My kids have reported (in therapy) some very disturbing stuff about their dad.

 

peace :smoke

[Tom]

This thurs. he dragging me to court to get unsupervised parenting time.

the judge added my kids into it, so my ex can't see them by court order  plus My kids have reported (in therapy) some very disturbing stuff about their dad.

Going to be a bit hard for him to win unsupervised access when he isn't allowed near the kids by court order, be good if you could get the same judge.

 

[loves420]

So my ex thought he could get unsupervised visits with the kid....

I think not. my ex's court appointed attorney tried to get 1 hour per week unsupervised.

 

before this court case was in front of the judge, I asked my lawyer if I could ask my ex to get a psychological evaluation. To my surprise, my ex is half way through one. my ex can't figure out why I say he's such a 'bad guy.' He likes to do the 'poor me' thing or 'it's so-in-so fault.' he completely denies anything his done. I think karma is now getting him. my attorney was expecting my ex to get supervised visits through community works- which means someone around but not paying attention.

 

we went through all the restraining orders, the divorce papers, and the CSD case papers. my ex tip his hand on his next legal move against me. He claims I never informed him of changing the kids last name. not true...I sent it certified mail to the last address I knew. It's a good thing I kept it when it was sent back to me. My ex also claims, he has tried to contact me to see the kids for a year. according to him, I never returned his calls/letters. what calls/letters??? he hasn't called me since I nailed him for breaking the restraining order a few years back, and if he did call/contact me, wouldn't that mean he broke the restraining order?

 

both of my kids counselors were there saying it would not be in the kids best interest to see father. in fact it might damage them more if they do see him. My daughter is unstable, her PTSD has taken control of my baby girl. the judge asked some questions about safe ways for the kids to see their dad. they advised the judge, if he must see them they recommend he go through drug/alcohol treatment, get UA's before the kids are around to him, counseling for him and with the kids. the last memory my son has of his dad with his mom together is daddy slamming mommy in to a wall. both of my kids have PTSD because of him.

 

My ex has to pay for a counselor during 'parenting time.' my ex asked the court to pay his way, but the judge told him no, the court doesn't do that. then the judge asked him if he could afford it? he said he'll find a way. (oh he must mean the same way he pays child support-he doesn't pay it) I think the judge was trying to be fair, give him a chance.

 

my kids are sad, scared and mad. they don't want to go. so in 30 days, CSD has to set up these "parenting time" and my kids counselors pick my ex's counselor. I told them their dad will have to see a talking doctor. and that the talking doctor may want them (the kids) to be there while their dad is there.

 

I don't think my ex will jump through these hoops for long (a month or two) before he looses interest again. I'll have a few weeks to prepare my kids to see their dad again with help from their talking doctors. Hopefully, my kids condition don't get worse. But at least my ex is on a tight leash. considering what would of happened without my witnesses, I won. My kids may have to be around their dad, but its safest I can make it for them.

 

Peace

Loves420