PTSD advice please

[MedMike69]

I was brought up in an abusive home with a father who abused his two boys and I started smoking weed when I was 17. I stopped when I met my wife aged 21. After I stopped I immediately (within the month) started to get migraine headaches. Every week I would get two or three, couldn’t work or see, and pain was incredible. Started to want to die and went to endless medical appointments. To cut a long story short I a, 50 next week and still get them. Doctor just diagnosed me as having chronic depression. He said it was off scale 10/10. I’ve been taking anti depressants but it leaves with massive ED so no sex with wife. It’s a huge thing to give up. I still get headaches or migraines and I suggested trying med cannabis again for depression. He did not want to get personally involved, but he said it was a good idea for me to try it on my own. However I’ve contacted some services in Australia and it looks like it will be far too exp. and you don’t get to chose what to buy, neither can you grow your own supposedly. I’ve been thinking of trying to buy off darknet but many markets now shut and I’m worried I will get into trouble as I am a teacher now. My life’s single goal is to give children the love and care that they should get. It’s a big risk to get it illegally and would prefer the legal route but whatever happens, it’s just not fair it’s not legal. I hope Australia changes their law soon bc it’s been proven that alcohol affects more than cannabis. It’s like we are living in the dark ages. I guess I’m just venting but also hoping you could share your POV or maybe even offer some advice. Regardless it’s nice to meet others in the community. Edited June 20, 2019 by MedMike69

[AquaDolly]

Don't worry about being a teacher. Alot of us work in jobs like that and us cannabis.

You can grow your own in as little as 3 months and if needed just find the local dealer. Just not the dealer in your school[emoji1787][emoji1787]. There's plenty of those if you work in high schools.

You'll get through. PTSD is hell on earth but things can get better and you can lead a normal life.

 

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[MedMike69]

Thanks AquaDolly preciate the support

I work in primary cause that’s where the happiness is

What’s life lived if we can’t feel safe and happy right?

It’s a fundamental right!

Anyhow your post got me thinking about what I should do next

Dunno any dealers as I’m old

Growing seems shady if they can take your house off you for it

It kinda worries me a bit

No sex or no house ...

haha it’s a tough choice!!!

Cheers

MM

Don't worry about being a teacher. Alot of us work in jobs like that and us cannabis.

You can grow your own in as little as 3 months and if needed just find the local dealer. Just not the dealer in your school[emoji1787][emoji1787]. There's plenty of those if you work in high schools.

You'll get through. PTSD is hell on earth but things can get better and you can lead a normal life.

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Edited June 21, 2019 by MedMike69

[RC.]

Hi MM 69,

 

I was in the position of being old (mid 60's) and couldn't score anything so just decided to grow my own indoors in a grow tent due to neighbours etc.

 

I now have the supply I need to make my tinctures and vape oils and dry herb and it has helped me tremendously with many ailments including PTSD due to the loss of a son.

 

I also worked in education as a Principal of a special school. Retired now.

[kloud9]

Hi MM 69,

 

I was in the position of being old (mid 60's) and couldn't score anything so just decided to grow my own indoors in a grow tent due to neighbours etc.

 

I now have the supply I need to make my tinctures and vape oils and dry herb and it has helped me tremendously with many ailments including PTSD due to the loss of a son.

 

I also worked in education as a Principal of a special school. Retired now.

RC where's RR ?

 

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[RC.]

RC where's RR ?

 

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RR is someone else on here ie not me.

 

So I dunno where RR is Kloud9

[kloud9]

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[MedMike69]

Thanks RC

I understand about being too old to score

I decided to try maybe do what you suggested but maybe wait until I am in better place as I’m moving soon

I appreciate you having the courage to share

It’s kinda inspiring to know you got the help you needed

I am sorry for your loss

Nothing compares to life huh

Maybe one day you will be together again

One day we will know or not

I hope so, esp for you

Take care

MM

 

 

Hi MM 69,

 

I was in the position of being old (mid 60's) and couldn't score anything so just decided to grow my own indoors in a grow tent due to neighbours etc.

 

I now have the supply I need to make my tinctures and vape oils and dry herb and it has helped me tremendously with many ailments including PTSD due to the loss of a son.

 

I also worked in education as a Principal of a special school. Retired now.

[merl1n]

Hey Mike,

I too was a teacher but my clients all had disabilities, I was teaching them independent living skills. Now, I'm the one with the disability, which is a bit of a bitch, but canna has helped me enormously, even just in cutting back on the pharma crap the medicos love to feed me.

Growing your own has SOOO MANY plus's. The first being the reduction in pharmas. The second being the growing, the nurturing. The change in focus from 'me' to something else ie the growing, then there's the final product. NICE

Headaches/migraine/headpain is one of my primary issues, followed by all the 'side effects, after undergoing a few neurosurgeries. Canna has helped me heaps. The key has been finding which strain and which form gives the best benefit for my specific need on that specific day as no 2 days are ever the same pain wise.

Mike, there's some great people here with some excellent information and if you decide to go down the growing lane, well, you're in the right place. People here are always willing to share their knowledge and skills.

So, don't be a stranger.

 

Merl1n

[MedMike69]

Thanks Merlin I appreciate the support

I decided to go forward

Can I ask what works best for migraine pain

I have it now

I appreciate your advice

MM

[merl1n]

Hey Mike,

Over the years other members here have been a massive support to me and I have no problem whatsoever in passing that support on.

Pain can be nasty and head pain is simply a bitch. Some people think all pain is the same and I strongly disagree. Leg pain affects your leg and you can have a limp where head pain can affect EVERYTHING. 

As for what works best, now, that depends. It most definitely is not a 'one size fits all' sort of thing. For me it depends on the 'trigger' ie what has been the cause?

I need to sit down and analyze "What have I done to cause/exacerbate the pain?" Have I done too much? Is it tiredness? Has it been too physical? Has it been too mental? Is it bright light? Is it noise related? etc, etc

If I can identify a cause I can learn 'Ahh don't be doing that again' and then to manage it... I tend to get a bit frustrated with myself when I cannot find a cause.

 

I have a 'few canna tools' I utilize.

If I'm able to stop and do nothing and I mean absolutely nothing, I like my hash. Hash welds my arse to the lounge everytime, mellows me out bigtime and I can relax and just switch off to the world around me.

If I still need to function I can smoke a cone of some nice bud and I have a few differing smokes that I like to 'mix'n'match'. If I smoke the some strain repeatedly it tends to lose it's beneficial effect, so varying the smoke is a must for me.

If I need an increase in effect I may top a cone with a bit of oil, but again it really depends.

Often I find I may need to have a pharma and a choof to get things under control enough to function. But if I can lock myself away from the world for a couple of hours, I hit the hash HARD, then laydown for a bit.

 

But as I say it really can depend on the cause. 

BUT, 

Just like the dr's, some will make out that they have the 'key', BULLSHIT, everybody's key is different. You have to work out what is your key and what works best for you. Nobody else feels your pain in exactly the same way you do, so what works for you can be very individual. This is the same with the pharma crap, for some it can be a stress thing and a calmative can benefit, for some it can be a muscular thing so an anti inflammatory can benefit. For some it can just be pain and an opiate can work. But the problem I find with using pharmas continuously is that I need more and more to get the same benefit, where with canna by mixing it up both in strain and form a minimise the need to increase strengths.

 

Well, that's what I do, but it truly is a case of what works best for you as an individual in managing YOUR pain.

 

Hope it helps

Merl1n